My Story part six college

Ok, this one is long and is mainly a romantic story. So, if you aren’t into romance then leave, if you don’t like stories about gay men then leave, if you like both then read on and hopefully you will have read the stories in order. There is no part three, I screwed up and typed four when that was supposed to be part three. So it goes from two to four by mistake. All the parts are up so don’t worry that you are missing something. I screwed up in categorizing as well so not all are labeled as true story and might be hard to find so just click on the author link by clicking my profile name Zac22 next to one of the stories and it’ll direct you to the whole series and then you can read them all in order. Enjoy.

After that night, I decided to take a break from relationships. I needed to get over Jon and just relax. This way I could stop worrying about sex and dating and just have fun with my friends.

We finished the school year and then went through senior year. I didn’t sleep with anyone or even date for that year and a half. I was actually really happy with it. Sure I missed being in a relationship and masturbation went into overdrive but I didn’t get hurt and I had a lot of fun with my friends and actually enjoyed my senior year.

Well, actually, during my senior year I joined a few dating/chat sites just to meet people and ended up talking to a few cool guys and avoiding many many others. Chatting was fun though I didn’t do the cam and picture exchange that so many guys wanted. I just wanted to meet people and talk for fun. It was nice because online you can be whatever you want to be. I didn’t lie to people about myself, but if the question came up about ‘size’ I could always say, “oh I’m 7 inches” and they’d never know that I’m more like 5 rounding up slightly from 4.5ish. I never looked to meet anyone or get into a relationship because I thought it would be better to wait until college so I wouldn’t start something and then leave when I go to school.

Brent ended up really clicking with Michele and decided to go to the near by college to be closer to her. Chris and Kristin didn’t work out and he went to school with Brent and roomed together in the dorms there. Randy and I went to another school out of state but close by (no specifics). The interesting thing with us going to school together was that we applied to room together in the dorms, but when we got there they had a problem. I don’t lie about my sexuality so I answered the forms honestly. The forms asked questions about personality and sexuality and comfort with other peoples personalities and sexualities. They were concerned that it may be a problem for Randy to room with a gay guy. So we had to fill out a ton more paper work that relieves the school of any liability. Basically, Randy was no longer allowed to sue them form making him uncomfortable by making him room with a gay guy. First we laughed at the situation but the paperwork was a pain in the ass.

Anyway, we got to room together in the dorms. They were set up so that lower and upperclassman were together. The building was coed but roommates were not. So we were on the same floor as guys, girls, freshman, seniors, grad students, etc. Each floor had a living area with huge TV and stereo system and also had a big kitchen for everyone to use.

Each room was pretty much the same. Ours was an ok size with two beds sort of in the shape of an L so that Randy’s was against the far wall and mine was on the left size of the room against the wall. It opened space that way so that there was a desk inserted between the two beds so that my desk was right next to my head when I slept and at the top of his bed. His desk was next to his bed and the bathroom. We had our own bathroom to share rather than a bathroom for the floor. We also got a pretty big closet with two dressers. The room was nice and all of them were mostly the same except upperclassman got rooms and a bathroom to themselves so it was nicer. Same size for them but they didn’t have to share.

The policies for the building were pretty lax considering it being coed. Girls could wear whatever they wanted on the floors as long as they had something on in addition to bra and panties so most girls when they were in the kitchen or living area just wore shorts and skimpy shirts or pajamas. Guys had less restrictive rules and had to have something on in addition to underwear so guys could just wear shorts and no shirt. Depending on who was in the kitchen or living area most guys would at least put on a tank or sleeveless shirt, but nobody really cared so shirtless was pretty common.

They put people on each floor based on the personality paperwork so all the people on our floor had no problem with homosexuality and had similar interests and personalities. It was cool because after just a couple months in school we had tournaments on various video games involving guys and girls and also had little parties and ate together quiet a bit. There were around 30-34 people per floor and if we ate together we usually ate in groups of 5-10. There were around 18 girls to 12 guys on our floor. I always wore at least shorts and a tank around our floor while three other guys did the same, the rest of the guys would either sometimes or usually go shirtless. I did not mind one little bit; the girls never complained either.

We all knew each other on the floor but it seemed like it was broken into two groups that got to be closer friends and hung out a lot. As a whole group we didn’t hang out as much and didn’t know each other really closely. All the girls on the floor were straight and the same goes for the guys except me…at first

Now that I was in college, I was ready to date again and though I wasn’t pursuing a relationship aggressively, I was open to one. Randy and I had gone to a few parties and I had met a few guys, but none were my type. I didn’t mind; I was still having fun.

I had one class Tuesday mornings with two athletes one basketball and one wrestling who would go to this class right after morning workouts. I had a very hard time paying attention Tuesdays. One of them wore a cut off t-shirt that was totally open from his arms to his hips making his sweaty chest and stomach totally visible from the side. The other sat just in front of me and had very strong shoulders and well built arms. He had medium length light brown hair and it was always wet from sweating during workout. So every Tuesday I could see a sweaty wrestler’s chest and abs a few rows up and to the right while I could see and smell another guy’s strong back with sweat dripping down his hair and neck. I was always the last one to leave the room, as I needed to conceal my erection each day.

One day in early November, I was sitting in the living area watching TV. The building was pretty empty because there was a campus event on the library lawn and I had already checked it out the day before. So, I was relaxing when Shawn, one of the guys on my floor, came over to me.

Shawn had blond hair and the bluest eyes I’ve ever seen. He had short hair and a little scruff facial hair when he skipped a few days shaving. He was in a wheelchair but would be about six feet tall standing. He could walk a little bit, but he needed to lean on countertops or whatever was around to keep balance. He was a freshman too, but had his own room instead of a roommate. He was a cool guy and always joked about his wheelchair. He was totally comfortable with answering questions about his disability. At this point everyone on the floor didn’t care about the wheelchair and he was just another guy on our floor. He didn’t get any sympathy from us and no one ever asked if he needed help with anything because most of the time he’d get whatever done before you could even think to ask if he needed help.

“What’s up Shawn?” I asked.

“Nothin much.” He said. “What you watchin?”

“Nothing really, just flipping through trying to find something decent.” I replied.

Shawn rolled up to me with his elbows leaning on his knees turned half way between the TV and me. “You got plans tonight?”

“No, how bout you” I said casually still looking for something on TV.

“Me neither,” He paused a couple seconds, “you wanna go out to eat?”

“Sure, who all’s goin?” I replied as I landed on Comedy Central playing an episode of The Daily Show.

“Oh, no one, I was just wondering if you wanted to go with me” His voice dropped slightly to an awkward, nervous tone.

I turned the TV down and looked at him giving him my full attention now. “Wait, do you mean like” I paused “like a date?”

Shawn had his arms folded in his lap while he was leaning over still facing half way between the TV and me. His was blushing slightly and he quickly replied, “Yeah, I mean if you don’t want to that’s cool. You don’t have to-”

“No, I’ll go out with” I interrupted. He looked up at me with a relieved look, “I just had no idea that you’re gay.”

“Yeah, well I wouldn’t know that you’re gay either if you didn’t wear that necklace.” He said finally making eye contact still blushing slightly.

“That’s true” I paused looking at him clearly still a little on edge over asking me out “You know, you’re really cute when you’re embarrassed haha”

He smiled and turned bright red as he laughed and covered his face with his hands.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to embarrass you even more, but I’ve never seen you blush like that and it’s cute” I laughed as he put his hands down and smiled. “So where are we going to tonight?”

“I don’t know, Applebee’s or something. I didn’t really think much farther than asking you.” He laughed.

“Haha, ok, that sounds good.” I laughed. “So, what time do you wanna go, or did you also not plan that?”

“Leave here around seven?” He replied.

“Sounds good to me.” I agreed.

“Cool” he smiled “I can drive us, you wanna meet out here at seven then?” He asked as he sat up ready to go back to his room.

“Yeah, just one more thing” I said before he could roll away. “Are you out at all or do you want this to be secret or what?”

“Oh, it’s cool, I don’t care who knows.” He replied.

“Ok, see you tonight.” I smiled as he went back to his room.

Once he left I texted Randy “I have a date tonight!” and went to our room and got in the shower.

When I got out of the shower Randy had gotten back, “Who? What? Where? When? Why?”

“Can you at least let me get dressed? And what kinda questioning is that” I laughed.

“Well, you can’t just text me you have a date and nothing else. So who is it?” He interrogated as I dried off and got dressed.

“Shawn”

“For real? He’s gay?”

“Yeah” I said smiling.

“When did this happen?”

“Well I don’t know the exact date, but I’m pretty sure he’s been gay for a while”

“Shut up, you know what I mean”

“He asked me right before I texted you”

“Where?”

“I was watching TV and he just came up to me and asked. I felt bad because I didn’t know he was asking me out at first. I thought he was asking me to join a group or something”

“Wow, so where are you going? When?”

“He’s taking me to Applebee’s at seven.”

“Awesome, so is he in the closet or something?”

“No, he said he doesn’t care if people know, he just doesn’t advertise it. I mean I’m the same way other than the necklace.”

“Ok, so it’s ok if I start telling everyone her while you guys are gone?” He asked with a sly grin.

“You should ask him that before you go spreading it around. Plus we don’t know yet if it’s going to be more than one date.” I answered.

“Ok, do you like him?” He continued.

“He’s cute and we’ve gotten along so far. I just don’t wanna get my hopes up. I don’t know that much about him or what kind of boyfriend he is so let’s just wait at least one date before you make me answer all this stuff.”

“You’re boring, I’m gonna text him” He laughed and sat on his bed.

“What the hell, what are you texting him?” I laughed rolling my eyes.

“I wanna know if I can tell people”

“You are such a gossipy chick”

“Whatever” he paused for a few seconds waiting for a reply. “Sweet, I can!”

Seven rolled around and we went to the restaurant. He drove a truck so he could easily lift his chair in and I just sat back and watched him take care of it knowing that I would’ve just messed it up. When we got to the restaurant we ordered and got to chatting.

“So, you do realize that when we get home, Randy will have told everyone.” I said.

“Yeah, I was a little surprised at how quickly he asked me if he could.” He laughed.

“So, since you don’t tell people, does anyone know?” I asked.

“Yeah, I came out to my friends in high school and my parents, but just don’t think much of it now and I guess I just did bother telling anyone here. I guess they’ll all know shortly.” He smiled.

I was looking at him in a totally new light now. He had a very strong upper body with thick arms, strong chest, and strong broad shoulders. His smile was absolutely adorable and I wouldn’t stop looking at his amazingly blue eyes.

We continued talking as we ate dinner. I told him about me and told him about the situation with Jon and when I came out and everything I could think of to say and answered all his questions. “Ok, so now you tell me about yourself. Hobbies? Interests? Old boyfriends?” I prodded.

“Ok, well you know a lot already but I like video games, sports, I play some sports, I am kind of a movie buff and have a bunch of DVDs and love going to the movie theater.” I nodded as he continued “And, well, this is a little awkward. I have talked to a couple guys and sort of dated but not really.”

“Ok.” I paused “You don’t have to say if you don’t want to, but what do you mean sort of dated? What did you do with him? You don’t have to say.”

“Um, I went out with a guy but never really were boyfriends and never even kissed a guy before.” He was blushing again.

“That’s cool.” I paused and smiled “You really are adorable when you are embarrassed.” He laughed.

We paid the check and went back out to his truck. “So was this sort of a date or a real date?” I asked jokingly.

“This was real.” He smiled.

“Ok, good I just wanted to make sure.” I laughed.

Shawn smiled and asked, “So would you like to go out again sometime?”
“I’d like that” I answered.

“Then does that mean you’d wanna be my boyfriend?” He started to blush again.

“Are you asking me to be your boyfriend?”

“Yeah” He said softly looking down.

I put my hand on his shoulder and he looked me in the eyes. “I’d really like that.” I leaned in and kissed him. He smiled.

“So that’s two firsts for you, first boyfriend and first kiss.” I smiled “You ready for your first time facing a mob of friends set to embarrass you and your new boyfriend?”

“Is it really gonna be that bad?” He asked.

“Well, they all know about it by now. Randy probably told everyone two minutes after we left. There will probably be a fair number of people waiting for us to get home. They’ll have some comments and questions, but if we’re lucky it’ll only last a few minutes.” I replied.

We got back to our building took a deep breath and went into our floor living area. There were only five people there watching TV: Randy, Melissa, Dana, Lauren, and Jeff. They all turned their heads and smiled at us.

“So, how was your date?” Randy asked.

“It was good” I answered as Shawn got out of his chair and sat on the nearest couch. “So how long did it take you to tell everyone we know?” I asked as I sat down next to Shawn.

“Bout five minutes to tell everyone on our floor and the rest took another ten or so.” He answered with a proud smile.

“You guys just gonna stare at them all night? I mean come on, Shawn is blushing so bad it looks like his head is about to explode.” Jeff said. Shawn covered his face.

“I think it’s cute.” Melissa said.

“Told you.” I said to Shawn. He dropped his hands with a smile.

“Ok, let’s leave them alone and watch the movie.” Lauren said.

We all started watching Tommy Boy. We sat next to each other on the couch with our legs up on the ottoman. Shawn got the courage to put his arm around me and I sank and leaned into his chest.

“Oh my god, that is so cute” Melissa commented. I held Shawn’s hand to keep him from hiding his face again. I was determined to get him to relax and just deal with the comments because they were going to keep coming. His hands were strong and rough from the wheelchair but somehow soft.

When the movie was over the group dispersed and it was just Shawn, Randy and me still in the living area. “Well, I’ll leave you two alone. See ya later”

I just stayed sitting on the couch relaxing in Shawn’s arms “You wanna go to my room and watch a movie?” He asked.

“Yeah” I replied sitting up. He got into his chair and we went to his room. It was the same layout as Randy and my room but he had a double bed and fit a TV in with the extra room from not having a roommate.

Shawn put in Remember the Titans and we got onto his bed. He took off his shoes and lay down and I did the same. I lay down next to him and rested my head on his chest as he held me close. We watched the movie for a little while holding each other when I turned a little and moved up to his lips and kissed him softly as he kissed me back. He pulled me closer and held me as we kissed deeper. My head was flying. He was a great kisser, not too aggressive and not too timid, he moved his tongue with mine gently and passionately. I sucked on his lower lip and he rolled over on top of me and continued kissing me holding himself up by his elbows. We kept kissing until the movie was nearly over and he just held me in his strong arms with my head on his chest and arm around his stomach.

He held me like that until the end of the movie “I should go back to my room.”

“Ok” We sat up and I picked my shoes up off the floor. I leaned in for a kiss goodnight and as I began to pull away he put his hand on the back of my head and pulled me in for another deep kiss then sent my head spinning once more “Goodnight Zac” He said with a smile.

My jaw had dropped and with a dumb smile I said “Goodnight Shawn” I stood up and walked to the door, looked at him with a big smile and closed the door behind me. I walked down the hall and into my room where I closed the door and collapsed onto my bed.

The lights were out but Randy wasn’t sleeping. “You got back late” He teased. I just lay on my bed with a huge smile. “Well, what happened?”

“We went to his room and watched a movie. We made out for like an hour. I’ve never been kissed like that before. It was amazing, I got light headed almost and just melted. Then, he just, held me.” I explained.

“Wow, did you do anything else?” He questioned.

“No, we just kissed and he held me. That was it and my head is still spinning. I haven’t even felt like this after sex or during sex. It was perfect. He just kissed me and held me and my head is still spinning.”

“Yeah, you said that.” He paused “Wow, that sounds intense.”

I got undressed and got into bed.

“Just do me a favor and jack off quietly. I don’t wanna hear that” He laughed.

“I’m not jacking off” I said calmly back to him.

“For real? After all that you’re just gonna go to sleep?” He asked with a confused voice.

“Yeah” I said calmly.

Randy got up turned on the light and kneeled next to me. “Are you ok? You’re just spaced with that stupid smile. What’s up with Shawn? You didn’t look like this after your first night with Jon and you had sex with him. What’s your deal?”

“I’m fine” I said looking up at the ceiling with a huge smile. I looked down at Randy “I’m great, I don’t know why or how but the way I feel from Shawn kissing and just holding me makes me feel amazing. I can’t explain it.”

“Ok,” he said with a laugh and turned the light back out, “goodnight Zac.” He got back in bed and we went to sleep.

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A few weeks went by and Shawn and I were going out every weekend to a movie or bowling or dinner. We didn’t go out during the week because we wanted to make sure we kept up with classes and I didn’t go to his room to hangout and watch movies during the week either. Friday and/or Saturday we went out on dates or went out with friends and I’d go to his room after to be alone and watch movies, talk and make out.

Winter break had come and I went home with Randy. Every day I talked to Shawn on the phone. I had never talked this much before and gotten to know a guy so well. We told each other our life stories, our interests, fears, family histories, stories from childhood, etc. He told me how he had a hard time coming out to his family and the depression he went through when he was younger dealing with having a disability and being gay and how so many people treated him badly over both. I told him how I came out and about my past relationships. We both got emotional with our stories and we just felt really comfortable talking to each other about everything.

By the end of winter break I really missed him and couldn’t wait to get back to school. We came back right after Christmas so we could spend new years on campus. So we still had another week and a half on break together before school started again. When we got back to our apartment I went straight to his room. He was on his way out to greet me. I dropped to a knee and gave him a huge hug “I missed you so much”

“I missed you too” he laughed, “can you let me go for a second, I can’t move.”

We went to the living area and lay down on the couch. Shawn put his legs up on the ottoman and sat at an angle so I could lay across the rest of the couch and rest my head on his stomach as he held me. We were just laying together for about an hour watching TV when a few people joined us and we all chatted for a little while before the conversation got awkward.

“So have you guys slept together yet?” Dana asked.

“No” Shawn chuckled.

“Really? You’ve been going out for like two months now and you’re always going into Shawn’s room.” She continued.

“No, we just hangout and talk when we go to my room, but we’ve never had sex.” He said. I could hear his heart beating faster as he was getting uncomfortable.

“I’ve never even spent the night with him. I always go back to my room.” I added.

“I can vouch for that. He always comes home every night and I’d be the first to know if he slept with Shawn.” Randy chimed in, “I’m a little surprised though. He’s never been in a relationship this long without sleeping with the guy.”

“Wow, thanks Randy, you make me sound like a man whore. We just haven’t slept together yet, we will when the time is right. So what if it’s been a couple months.” I told them.

Dana hesitantly asked one more question, “Well, Shawn, can you have sex, like does it wor-“

“Ok, that’s enough of this conversation. You guys are getting a little too involved in our relationship.” I interrupted.

“Ok, yeah let’s settle down. She didn’t mean anything. That’s a little too much and Dana knows that, right?” Jeff tried to calm the situation.

“Yeah, I’m sorry you guys. I didn’t think.” Dana said sheepishly.

Shawn held me rubbing my chest a little, “Calm down Zac, it’s no big deal. Let’s just watch some TV.”

The mood leveled and we watched TV for a while before the group cleared a little. Some people left and others came in. Shawn and I excused ourselves to his room and put in a movie. I laid down next to him as he held me and watched the movie for a little while before Shawn interrupted, “Do you wanna sleep here tonight?”

I sat up and looked at him.

“I’m not saying we have sex tonight or anything like that, I’m just saying you could sleep here tonight instead of going back to your room.” He added when he saw my blank stare.

“Is this cuz of what they said out there?” I asked.

“No,” he paused, “well not completely. I guess they just brought up a good point. We have been seeing each other for two months. I’m not saying they are gonna control when we have sex or anything like that, but it made me think that I’d really like you to stay the night. We can figure everything else out later. I’m just asking you to sleep here tonight.”

“I’d love to” I smiled and leaned in, kissed him, and laid back on his chest and finished watching the movie.

When the movie was over Shawn got up into his chair and put another movie on and I texted Randy that I was going to stay there and he shouldn’t worry that I wasn’t going home tonight. I also added that I wasn’t having sex but just spending the night and not to go out and tell everyone.

“You wanna go ahead and get under the covers? I’m gonna put on some sweatpants to sleep in. Do you need some?” Shawn asked.

“No, I can just sleep in these shorts.” I said as I sat up and pulled the blankets down and got into bed.

Shawn went into the bathroom to change. I took off my socks and threw them on top of my shoes. Shawn came out a couple minutes later and turned off the lights again, pushed play on the movie, and rolled over to the edge of the bed. He stopped before getting out of his chair into bed, “I hope you don’t mind, but I can’t sleep with a shirt on.” He proceeded to lift his shirt off. I hadn’t seen him without a shirt yet. I had always seen through his shirt and felt that he had a strong chest but now I could fully see. He was smooth with a little bit of light blond hair starting under his belly button. He had strong pecs that weren’t overly ripped, strong amazing body, he had strong abs but not very visible abs. For reference, his body was built like Tim Tebow is now, very strong stomach and chest without much definition and very strong thick arms and shoulders.

He lifted his shirt all the way off as I looked at his body by the light from the TV screen, “Damn, you are so gorgeous” I said stunned and proceeded to take my shirt off.

Shawn laughed and got into bed with me lifted his legs under the blankets and pulled me closer to him. I put my arm around him and rested my head on his bare chest. He was soft and warm and I could have fallen asleep right then but kept my eyes open watching the movie. When the movie was over he turned it off and we just lay there together. I ran my hands around his body feeling his chest and stomach as my head was now resting on his bicep. I was looking down at my hand grazing his stomach as he looked at me, “You having fun?” he asked.

“Yeah,” I looked up at him with a smile.

He laughed and rolled over on me, kissing me as I moved my hands along his back. He held himself up over me as he kissed me deeply. I moved my hand up his back holding his flexed shoulder and arm. I moved my hand along his arm and back up to his shoulder. I pushed him back down and moved on top of him still kissing before I relaxed on top of him and put my head on his chest and closed my eyes with a sigh.

Shawn pulled the blankets up over us and wrapped his arms around me, “Good night baby,” he whispered.

“Good night” I whispered back and fell asleep in his arms.

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Another month went by and now on weekends I spent the night with Shawn, but we continued to keep up with classes during the week and only hangout for lunch and in the living area when we didn’t have work to do. It was February and we had been seeing each other for three months and I was happier than I had ever been in my life.

Thursday night I walked into my room and Randy was already in bed but not sleeping. “Hey, how’s it going?” I asked.

“I’m good,” he said quietly. I got undressed and turned off the light. “Zac…” he said.

“Yeah?”

“How are things going with Shawn and you?” he asked.

“Great, why?”

“I was just wondering, and um, I don’t wanna make you mad cuz I know how you felt when Dana asked that one day, but can Shawn actually have sex?” He asked with a worried voice.

“Of course he can” I said sitting up in my bed. “I mean, I don’t see why he couldn’t.”

“Well, I just thought about it and you guys haven’t had sex yet and maybe that’s cuz he can’t really do much. You know?” He continued with his worried voice.

“Relax Randy, I’m not gonna get mad at you for talking to me about this, I was only mad when Dana said it in front of everyone. You’re my best friend, I tell you everything, so relax.” I assured him while I avoided his comment.

“Ok,” he said with a sigh of relief and walked over to my bed and sat next to me, “so do you think he might not be able to?”

“I don’t know, I mean, we haven’t done anything down there yet and I never really thought about it. It’s not like I just grab his crotch. I don’t think there’s a problem there but I don’t know for sure. I’ve never asked.”

“Well, just hypothetically, what if he can’t do it?” he asked.

“What do you mean?” I asked. Now I had thoughts and emotions running all through my head. I hadn’t thought about this at all before, I just assumed everything was fine.

“Well, if he can’t have sex then would you have to end it with him?” he asked and began to talk quickly, “I’m not trying to upset you I just don’t want you to get too invested and then get hurt.”

There was a long pause as I calmly realized what my answer was, “No, I couldn’t leave him” I paused, “I don’t care if he can have sex or not” I looked up at Randy as my eyes began to water, “I love him” I said choking up.

Randy smiled, “That’s great man.” Randy gave me a hug as a tear ran down my face. I smiled and wiped my tears. Randy let me go and with a smile and tear filled eyes he got up and went back to his bed.

I laid back in bed with a smile. I was in love. I loved Shawn. I had been in relationships before where I got very emotionally invested, like with Jon, but had never been in love before.

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The next day I couldn’t stop smiling and that night in Shawn’s room I had to tell him. We were in the middle of the first movie, I looked up at him with a smile, “I love you.”

He looked at me and smiled, “I love you, too” he said softly and kissed me gently. He lifted his hand to my face and wiped my eyes, “Why are you crying?”

“You have no idea how amazing you make me feel. I love you so much and to hear you say you love me too-“

“Zac,” he said with a smile “of course I love you, I’ve just been afraid to tell you. What brought this on?” he asked wiping more tears from my eyes.

“I was talking to Randy last night and he asked me about you and what Dana said about you being able to have sex.” I was talking fairly fast rushing through the story trying not to offend Shawn, “He didn’t want me to get hurt and asked me if I could stay with you if you couldn’t. I never thought about it and I realized I don’t care. I don’t know and I don’t care. I love you so much, that it doesn’t matter.” I paused waiting for a response.

Shawn smiled, “Baby, I can have sex” he said nodding slightly with a tone of voice that made me feel stupid for ever thinking otherwise.

I closed my eyes tight and turned my head away slightly. I opened my eyes looking at the ceiling, “Well I feel like an idiot.”

Shawn laughed, “Don’t, you just made me feel so great that you feel that way” He paused for me to look at him, “I love you”

I smiled and felt a wave of relief fall over me. I was so worried he was offended that I ever thought that. “I love you, too.”

He wiped away my last tears and I laid my head down on his shoulder. “Since we are on the subject, we have been together for a long time” he stopped.

I looked back up at him, “Are you saying you want to have sex?” I asked.

“Well, we have been together for three months and love each other very much. So, I think we should consider having sex.” He paused for a second, “and not just because I want to, but because I can” he laughed.

I shook my head and smiled at his smart-ass comment, “If you are ready then so am I. I don’t want to rush you into anything.”

“Zac, we’ve been seeing each other for three months, we’ve been sleeping together every weekend for the past month, and I’m madly in love with you. If that’s not ready, then I don’t know what is.”

“Ok” I said as I kissed his neck.

“Oh, wait” he paused and I stopped kissing, “do we need a condom?”

“Well, you know my history. I’ve always used one in the past to be safe and got checked regularly. I was tested two years ago and haven’t been with anyone since. And I know that you’ve never been with anyone before, so it’s up to you. If it would make you more comfortable then we should, I trust you” I explained. The mood was diminished by that explanation but it needed to be discussed.

“Ok, I’m good then.” He said with a nod.

I began kissing his neck again. I stopped for a moment to toss the blankets aside and straddled his waist kissing him deeply. I could tell he was nervous because he just laid there with his hands firmly on my waist.

I whispered “Relax Shawn, do whatever feels right and don’t worry about doing something wrong. As long as it feels good to you, then it’s right.”

He nodded his head in agreement and I continued kissing him. He started moving his hands around my back slowly. I sucked on his lower lip as he worked his hands underneath my shorts and underwear. He moved his hands around my ass and I put one hand on the waistband to pull them off. He got the hint and slid my underwear down. I had to stop kissing him to focus on kicking my shorts off and returned to his lower lip. His hands went right back to my butt as I moved to his neck. He ran two fingers along my smooth crack. I began sucking gently between his neck and shoulder while he moved his middle finger down my ass and around my hole. He felt his way to my hole and pushed gently against it. He pressed against it and relaxed a couple times before poking his finger just inside making me stop sucking his neck and breathe heavily.

He recognized this and pushed his finger inside just a little bit and back out. He kept poking in and out of my hole over and over as I softly kissed his neck moaning softly. I couldn’t wait any longer and slid my body down slightly so my ass was now out of his reach. He now moved his hands up feeling around my back as I kissed his chest. I moved to his left nipple and licked around it before kissing and sucking it gently. He was breathing heavier and I moved to his right nipple. I moved my tongue around his nipple again but this time when I touched it with my tongue he exhaled heavy with a soft grunt. I proceeded to suck his right nipple gently and he began to squirm slowly. I continued to work his nipple as I moved my hands to his waist and pushed his pants down. He took his right hand and pulled them down as far as he could while he kept his left hand on my back.

I kissed down the middle of his chest down to his stomach, licking slightly. I slid my body down further and sat up. I looked down at his fully hard penis and was in shock. His length was probably between 6 and 7 inches but he was insanely thick. I moved my hands to his pants at his knees and pulled them off of him and tossed them on his nightstand. His legs had some hair a lot like mine. There was hardly any up by his thighs. He had short blond pubic hair around his thick cut cock. I held him in my hand as I returned to his stomach, his hands on my back. I kissed his stomach and slid my tongue in his naval and then kissed down the little strip of hair.

I lifted up looking at his cock again. He already had precum all over the tip and had dripped down his shaft slightly. I licked his precum up to the tip of his penis and moved it into my mouth. I couldn’t put much inside my mouth because he was so thick. When I put him in my mouth his hands left my back and went over his head. He was panting as I began moving my tongue around his fat cock.

It wasn’t more than a minute after I put him in my mouth when he grunted and body tightened. He began unloading in my mouth. I didn’t have much room in my mouth and tried swallowing but cum still dripped out of my mouth down his shaft. He shot over and over five good blasts then oozed out two more shots worth of cum. I swallowed all I could before licking the rest off of his shaft. I never got more than three inches in my mouth maybe just two inches. He was just too thick to get into my mouth.

He panted for a minute, “Sorry I came so quick, I just never felt that before.”

“It’s ok” I smiled moving back up him and kissing him. My tongue softly against his as he gets a taste of his own cum. I began sucking on his lower lip again when he rolled me over and got on top. He kissed me for a moment and then moved to do almost the same thing that I did to him only faster. He kissed my neck and then down my chest. He licked my nipples and down my stomach. He was going a little too fast since it was his first time, but he knew how to work his tongue. He rolled his tongue around my abs and naval and didn’t waste time putting my cock in his mouth. I’m pretty thick but nothing compared to him and he was almost able to get my entire penis in his mouth. He was inexperienced, but like I said, he knew how to use his tongue. He rolled his tongue around my shaft and tip making me moan softly.

He went at my cock for a little over five minutes before I started to cum in his mouth. He felt me start to cum and he forced his whole head down on me. His face was in my trimmed pubic hair and my cock was at the back of his throat shooting down it. He pulled back and sucked the last few drops up. He climbed back up to me and kissed me. His penis hard again and pressing against my leg.
“You gotta go slow.” I whispered as I turned away from him on my side. He put his arm around me and pushed his cock against my crack. I reached back and guided him to my hole and he pressed against it. He was wet with precum again. He pushed slightly against me like he had done earlier with his finger. I backed into him a little but it wasn’t working. I lifted my right leg and laid it on his legs as he pushed against my hole again. I panted as the tip of his cock was almost inside of me. He pushed again and I whimpered in pain breathing heavy “ahh ahh” and he pulled out of me and I relaxed with a sigh.

“I don’t wanna hurt you” He said softly.

“It’s just been a long time and you are a lot thicker than I’ve ever had” I explained.

“I can’t do it if it hurts you this much. We can try another time.” He said turning me around facing him again.

“Ok, we can try another night.” I said with a smile looking in his beautiful blue eyes.

He kissed me, “I love you.”

I smiled, “I love you too.”

I grabbed the blankets and pulled them up over us. I turned on my side again and he did the same. He wrapped me in his arms holding me tightly against his warm body. Our legs were tangled together, my back pressed against his chest, my butt against his stomach and now softening penis, his left arm straight in front of me for my head to rest on his left bicep, his right arm holding me firmly against him, and his head just above mine as he kisses the top of my head and whispers “Good night.”

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